oil painting 油彩

原像がある。

像が目の裏側に焼きついて、脳に運ばれる。

蓄積された情報に像が溶け込み、ひずみ、焦点の合わない目の前に俄かに出現しては消え、その度に目の裏に焼きつく。

幾度も反芻された像のストック。取り出す際もプロセスを通る毎に形は変化する。腕の筋肉を通り、筆を通り、インクの粒子の中に泳ぎ出て紙の表面に固着し、鑑賞者にとっての原像となる。
手を離れた像は彼らの中でどう変化して行くのだろう。

 

There is the original image.

The image is burned into the back of the eye and carried to the brain.
The image blends into the stored information, distorts, suddenly appears and disappears in front of the unfocused eye, and each time it is burned into the back of the eye.

A stock of images that have been ruminated over and over. The shape changes as it passes through the process of extraction. It passes through the muscles of the arm, through the brush, swims out into the ink particles, and adheres to the surface of the paper, becoming the original image for the viewer.

I wonder how the image will change in their minds after it leaves their hands.

個人的な事だが数年前まで毎年9月になると丸一~二週間高熱と頭痛の症状に悩まされていた。夏の終わりかけ、ばてて疲れ切った体が真夏の暑さを思い出したかのように発熱しだす。毎年夏の気配とともに、あの怪物の姿がちらついて恐ろしくて仕方がなかった。薬も氷枕も効かずただ熱が通り過ぎるのを待つしかなく、自分の貧弱な免疫に辟易とした。原因はわからないながら、それでも病は去っていく。まだまだ痛めつけたりないといったような表情で、「まあこれくらいにしてやる」と。何がきっかけか、ここ数年はやつの姿を見ていない。…が、やつの代わりに今はもっと強力な怪物がうろついている。数年前に去っていった私の怪物のように、こいつも去ってもう二度と戻ってこないことを祈るばかりだ。2021年10月11日

It's a personal thing, but until a few years ago, I used to suffer from high fever and headache for a whole week or two every September. Towards the end of the summer, my exhausted body would start to run a fever as if remembering the heat of mid-summer. Every year, with the onset of summer, the image of the monster flickered in my mind and I couldn't help but feel scared. Neither medicine nor ice pillows worked, and I had to wait for the fever to pass, fed up with my poor immune system. Although I didn't know the cause, the disease was still going away. I was fed up with my poor immune system. I don't know what triggered it, but I haven't seen him in a few years. ...But in his place, a more powerful monster is now roaming around. I just hope that like my monster who left a few years ago, this one will leave too and never come back. October 11, 2021

wood cut print 水性木版